worst asthma attack… n I cried as I refuse to be warded in
10 Sep 2009 Leave a Comment
in GRABBAGE CORNER: RANTS n CRAPs Tags: Edwin: Thank you baby, Hospital: Asthma- CGH
me in nab! totally fugly
I was kept in a room called “Isolation room” what an “unscary” start la! blardy hell.
I'm super groggy I swear cant even focus my eyes
yes… I know this is how sick I am.. wat the fark lo… need to post such tak glam picture of saya to prove that I’m actually a very sick child…
that's the tube where my steriods were administered to me, the many reasons why i hate needles!
I swear I almost cried when the the needle poked me. I had to look away and I almost let out a loud scream. Luckily the Dr attending me, Dr Chew made it a pretty chop session. She also drew blood to send to the lab for test and culture.
and the drip... sigh it was alittle uncomfortable on the bony area.
Super poor thing right? needles and tubes and gas… Dr didn’t want to discharge me and I ended up crying and Ed got irritated watching me cry. Why ar? Is it because it pains him everytime I cry? So he gets angry? Or my tears are irritating? I was tearing but I swear there was no noise. I wasn’t sniffling… just tears rolling down and eyes were red. 1 Pint… anyway the drip was given because my blood pressure was tooo low.
I'm super glad that I needn't spend a night alone in the hospital but in bed with ed though he's pissed w me
I guess as peeved as Ed was he just couldn’t bear to see me cry like a baby because I didnt want to spend the night alone beside very sick people and I am just a scaredy cat with total zero balls, gutless tiger. Wahrao u all try lo! Got chance, you go try, make sure it’s on the 7th lunar month (hungry ghost). I bet u all will do the same lo!!!!
Mummy Tay cooked porridge for me this noon knowing the ordeal I’d been through in the wee morning before I left for family doctor as the hospital had forgotten to give me my antibiotics (WTH?!!!). Really touched and grateful, to be loved by mummy tay. The porridge was one of the best porridge I’ve ever tasted. Maybe because it was cooked with love and care. It was just porridge with Bak chor (minced meat), with salted beans. My favourite dish anytime.
I guess that is another way of Edwin loving me? yes? no? I don’t know…
I’m really confused esp. after all the medication I have been taking. I must take a picture of it and post it up to remind myself how torturing it is to be down with asthma. And my face is so farking swollen.
I already look like “mian pao chao ren” (Superbread man). With the steriods I’m on… I dont think I’ll be taking any picture of myself. Until the swell subside and my face is back to normal.
So that’s my 09 09 09 adventure! Spent in the hospital till 3am plus lo.
My mummy was worried sick la. Infact, I think she having to see how sick and the suffering I’m going through pains her damn badly. She packed fish soup for me. And even double boiled ginseng soup for me! I love my Mummy!!! That is why I need to be well before my baby bro enters BMT and before I start my perm full time job.
mAHjong craze @ jess place part2
26 Aug 2009 Leave a Comment
in Edwin Dar, Girlfriends, Girlies, GOSSIPS: News-ziez, JESS BABY Tags: Edwin: Love, Edwin: Thank you baby, Girlies: Jess, MJ- @ jess place, Tuition: Kid's trouble
And so my morning was superbly disturbed by friggin calls from parents and agent! WTF!!! shouldn’t they be more considerate like wahrao where got people call 7am and start buggin the tutor regarding student not having to want go school and have the tutor to head over to “talk” to the kid and “motivate” the kid to not give up @ 7am?!
Well since being such a nice person and a very responsible tutor I answered my call semi- awake and spoke to the agent and contacted the parent of that kid. I’m just glad that my kid listened to me and not give up in life. Thumbs up to student!!!! Really proud of him, for not giving up on himself!
My day was terribly tiring and I had to rushed to serangoon north for a tution and then to TPY for the next. back to back man!!! Then rushed back home ( jess place) for dinner and MJ!!! Woot! I swear my schedule is so packed now that I barely have the time to ‘emo’.
And it was MJ till 4am!!! What the hell they are still Mj- ing lor!!! Ryo, vivian’s date came over- thank god he did, for my eyes are terribly closing.
Dinner was ham eggs and a cold dish- fermented beans with vinegar beansprouts! Shioky good stuff! Midnight snack was Mac’s and thanks to Ryo I had my satay with muruku!
Argh… I’m feeling nostalgic all over again. Managed to speak to hubby for a good 40mins and I just love his tender sweet voice over the phone. See the thing is we’ve been really busy lately with our work and own life that it’s almost impossible to spend time over the weekdays in each other’s arms. I miss sleeping in his warm tender arms and I miss his hugs! Bed last evening was really blardy cold! But I am still really thankful that he loves me and really just spent a good 40mins over the phone with me teasing me and cooing me. He even said: “I Love You” before he hung up. I can’t wait to see him later after my tuition sessions!
I will be packing something good for makan I guess for the both of us and yes! a good dvd movie- Enemy of state, maybe?
I suddenly realised that as much as I complains about Edwin and how he really gets me really peeved at times, I really do love him that much. I can’t wait for my studies to be totally over and start saving up to get an apartment together with just he and Ally. Sigh, another 4 years to that day I reckoned.
Oh and blardy Mr Terry is trying to act blur with me and eve’s pay *what the fark!* Not like it’s a big sum lei! Hm hubby said this : “You tell him about payment, and he refuses, tell him something bad is gonna happen to him *7th month*.” heeheee.
Ohhh and Ken called. Was really nice to hear dude’s concern.
oh well don’t wanna be so mean. okay! I guess today is just totally smashing and I really need to hit the sack. I’m soooo exhausted!
Where got Ghost weekend movie…
25 Aug 2009 Leave a Comment
in Edwin Dar, Girlfriends, Girlies, JESS BABY, Movies, Sick, SIM- Management studies Tags: Edwin: Love, Edwin: Thank you baby, Movie: Where got ghost
And so since I’ve been feeling unwell my darling LaoPokPok decided to be such a sweet hubby by dating me out on a movie after his polymate gathering and his man’s 21st bday chalet!!!
So being totally emo and he being super considerate *thinks for me* decided to catch the latest Jack neo’s Hor- medy! I swear I was terribly reluctant at first and was complaining to DiDi.
Me: Eh I’m heading out didi
Didi: HUH?! So late? Where are you going?
Me: Out for movie with Kor Kor… Catching “Where got Ghost” *rolls eyes* Like wat duh right?!
Didi: Hahahaha eh ya hor
Me: Kk ciaoz Korkor waiting for me liao…
And drum rolls… My verdict is : SUPERB! Like a must watch film and though we paid $10 per ticket it’s still damn worth the moo- lah!!!
I must admit I was pretty worried that I wouldn’t be able to sleep after that film as it’s like ghostly and it’s the lunar 7th month- Ghost festival, so yea.
Me: “Dar eh this film is it scary?
Dar: Ya! Farking scary la! Heard it’s not bad leh!
Me: Huh?! Then later how I sleep?! Then if I need to pee how the f sia?!
Dar: sleep urself lo, pee on your own lo. I won’t care liao, me damn tired gonna sleep… Bleah hehehehe
Me: EH! DOnt like that la!!! TMD! serious lei i don’t want to pee on the bed lo!
Dar: Bwahahaha! Like I’ve caught the show like! How the hell would I know? It’s horror la.
(damn reluctant to sit in the cinema to catch the show)
Stupid lao pokpok ended laughing and bantering me throughout the commercial. Wahrao I swear I was grabbing his hands pretty tighly before the movie even began. But I guess he was enjoying- basket! laugh at me! *wants to strangle him*
Anyway I was so relieved that it turns out to be a pretty hilarious comedy! And the film is pretty meaningful too with morales to learn at every end.
where got ghost
My favourite is this:
for every shortcut in life there’s a price to pay
I reckoned it’s something like that man, honestly I can’t remember word for word but you’ve got the gest to it. Seriously never expected Neo’s production to be so awesome and it’s better than Bruno. Bruno is tasteless humour but Where got ghost is much more meaningful and there’s more that meets the eyes. Just have o reflect upon it after a good laugh.
I wouldn’t say my weekend was perfect but seriously after this weekend, I finally understood myself a little more to why and what is it about my Laopokpok that makes me go so goo goo gaga over him. Why I am that much in love with him and it’s also because of this very reason why it hurts so badly at times.
He, I must say, is pretty MCP at times. I swear. Never gibber lovey dovey sentences or sweet nothings in my ears. Never display public affections when we are out and about with our friends or shopping. But at the end of the day he holds me tightly in his arms and his kisses still never fails to make my heart skip a beat and feel loved all at once and all over again.
He’s always doing little things that I never noticed or almost fail to understand what for- and it’s all for me, because he cares. Like when he nags and scolds me for not taking my meal, when all I really want is for him to just care by dropping a line “hope you’ve eaten and if not please do, don’t starve yourself and you’re not fat!” When he gets angry for me having to sleep late and end up waking up late. When I get emo and refuses food. He gets really uptight and angry over it which I never quite been able to understand. Seriously, I’m most of the time left clueless and I get upset over it for I think and thought he doesn’t loves me and I irritate him that badly.
But turns out, he’s just anxious over my health and it pains him alot when he sees me in pain or suffers. He gets pretty freaked out by it too, sometimes leaving him totally blank and not know what to do.
What Jess said about my Laopokpok turns out to be quite true. I need to start accepting his way of love and not expect him to love me in a manner that I want. And I shouldn’t and never doubt his love for me in any manner for he loves me, just a little MCP at times. And that I must start accepting the fact that I am really swooned by him and totally way too into him hence at times it backfires and I get hurt.
Geesh… Love is really confusing eh? But I swear I’m gonna work double hard and triple the effort in life and help ease the burden off a little by taking care of myself from now.
Despite my small hiccup, yes, it may seem devastating at first and detrimental, but that’s a very panorama view, I should start looking at things from a wider perspective. After hearing my girl said her piece of mind, I’m glad I heeded her advice and continued with what I should be doing despite how upset I am, as that’s the mentality of a successful person in life.
*Hugs! Ger if ya ever read this, I really can’t say how much I love you, though I’m laying in your bed now, beside you typing this post*
And like what my laopokpok said : Big problem small problem got problem no problem as long as it’s not my problem and I’ve got no problem with it, I should just sleep.
Dar I love you no matter what and from this day on, I’m sure of my choice. Through good times and bad, in good health or bad. I’ll stand by you always.
I’m sorry for Sunday, and no… … ni tui wo bu shi heng chai. Shi wo bu dong de. I caught a glimspe of your eyes that was filled with pain when you saw me cried. I finally understood. Dui bu qi.
I’m leaving on a Jetplane… *sniffs* Happy Bday Nic & Shan!
12 Aug 2009 2 Comments
in Dudes, Edwin Dar, exams, Girlfriends, Girlies, GOSSIPS: News-ziez, GRABBAGE CORNER: RANTS n CRAPs, JESS BABY, Jess n Gang- TWSS, Mac- Apple, Music, Nic- oldies, Sick, SIM- Management studies Tags: Dudes: Kenneth, Dudes: Nic, Dudes: Stanley, Edwin: Thank you baby, Girlies: Jess, Girlies: Shan, Gizmo: iShuffle, Mac- apple: iShuffle, sim- studies
“I’m leaving on a jet plane… Don’t know when I’ll be back again…”
Geeshh my boys are off to BKK & Phuket (1 week) now!!! All belted on-board… why so?
Nic was given a free trip to Thailand and so travelling alone can be a tad boring, he decided to get Ken to hop on-board with him. So so so…
Ah! It’s Nickie Birthday today:
“Happy Birthday to you happy bday to you happy bday to Mr Whatever attitude nic, happy bday to you”
And yes yes how can i forgotten my darling sis SHAN?!
“Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to my sweetie pie, Happy Bday to you. Muacks muacks muaaaacccckssss”
And I’m dead tired! Crazy shit been happening and I swear I am officially pronounced as sick- fatigue! I’m ‘happily’ running a fever again. Geesh! Thank God Stanley for your cool little gizmo for me to destress and chill/ company me during my long hours of solitare *seek comfort from it*. And I’m gonna hit the sack.
Mr Tay called. Poor him had a terrible busy day at work. I swear I really hate the Indian Chief! Like I’ve said it once I’ll say it again- That Mama should just go open a Mama shop and mind his own !@#$ business.
P.s Ken called in the plane just before take off. Like what the hell la! Turbulence siah!!! Ask you two to come back in a piece and safe trip. Apparently that action didn’t quite sum up to equivalent?
Btw have I mentioned how much I love Jess + Mr Tay?! I’m really wrelli touched for what you’ve done for me this evening. Mr Tay I’m also really thankful to have you being with me throughout this tough period (no doubt you’re not always beside me, but I know you’ve tried and still trying hard to make the time for me)
If I leave this world alive, I’ll thank you for all the things you’ve done in my life... …
Early morning tomorrow with yet another project! I’m 2 weeks away from exams!!! Just pop my sleeping pills and my medications. Nite Diary.
My love, I’m sick and tonnes of reports
21 Jul 2009 Leave a Comment
in Advertisements, Edwin Dar, Food, Girlies, Shopping Spree, Sick, SIM- Management studies, Tay Residents, Ter Bear Tags: Advertisements: Cadbury eyebrows, Edwin: Thank you baby, Food: Dim sum @ Wisma, Girlies: Addy & greg newz, Girlies: Jess, Shopping spree: New shorts, Sick: Gastric asthma & took wrng medication, sim- studies, Tay: Eden's Bday, Ter: report sick
Thank you Mr Tay for everything you’ve done for the past week. Well just you know, I really do appreciate every effort you’ve made and especially to have to tolerate and bear with me and my grouchi-ness.
It’s really comforting to have someone you love to care for you and be there when one’s sick. Especially me. I’m down with a mild asthma yesterday and lately been having very bad gastric episode. Yes, thanks to my irregular meals and eating hours. The price to be vain!
Asthma episode was once again due to my sinus. damn! I think I really need to ponder hard about getting my operation done to the nose- Which I am really reluctant to do so, cos I do not want to change any features of my face. I love my face. And I love my cheeks!!! I dont wanna end up looking like some housefly with a fat n flat nose.
Anyway I had to call in sick yesterday, as the working environment is really unfavourable to me when I’m down with a mild attack. I need lots of fresh air and definitely not some jam pack stuffy crowded tent cramped with tonnes of people. Plus I had tonnes of reports to submit. Business law, macro econs, micro econs, I.T and finance….I’m just really glad that Terry was understanding and didn’t F?!# me up over the phone. Phew!
Geesh, I am only done with macro, which we’ve submitted up just this noon. I am now in the midst of writing another report! But it is good to be busy! And this stress building up in me is screaming out loud to me to take my body out for a run or a good swim! I am contemplating. Should I run or swim? Running under the scorching sun isn’t exactly a pleasure to me nor my face. My cheeks and nose always get burnt. I love to be fair.
Well I was never fair since young, so no surprise at all when people accidentally mistaken me for a Malay- aunty tay thought that I was Fatimah! Furthermore with my nonya/ peranakan heritage, it’s no wonder why when I’m out with Mud people tend to mistaken us for a malay couple.
Maybe I’ll skip the afternoon run instead have an evening swim?
Oh, I’ve decided to miss this yr’s SBR/ AHM run due to some housefly, and purely for the sake of my my beloved cuzzie who was suppose to be running with me if I hadn’t drop it. But I am thinking of the Yellow ribbon prison run, Run singapore run, great eastern women run.
So far, I’ve got two kakis for this. I love my girlies!!!
I met up with Jess for a really short while yesterday, I was an hour late due to the asthma and my medication. I was so groggy!!! She dragged me out to have some food as she knew that it’s me to skip my meals despite being ill.
We had dim sum! My favourite! Alright this habit was cultivated due to my ex. He’s a cantonese so dim sum was almost every other week with his YeYe and MaMa. I had a “long” of Har Gow and a plate of Char Siew Shou (that’s breakfast, lunch and dinner). Jess on the other hand had like, lotus wrapped rice + bowl of century egg porridge+ chee chong fun and a cup of mango juice?! Pity I was too sick to take any pictures. I could even forget to snap a picture of us!!!
Well headed over to Mr Tay place and it was a relief seeing him. Cos I know, if anything was to happen to me, he’ll be there. And guess what? We celebrated DiDi’s birthday last night, uncle Tay bought a bengawa solo coffee cake.
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(Pictures to be uploaded)
And we watched desperate housewife followed by Duce bigalo man gigolo. Before that Dar bought me my favourite Mc Flurry to cheer me up. Well, I know, asthma and yet you’re eating ice cream? Actually I had only a mouth and I left the rest in the freezer. Cos I wasn’t feeling well last evening. So I was rushing out my Macro report. But before I decided to end my night, I googled a little one wedding bouquets.
Why?!
I recieved the below:
Addy: ” hi gal, me and greg getting married on 3rd jan. you tag along for the day ya? =]”
OH MY GOSH!!!!! YIPPPEEEE. *sniffs* *sniffs* Jie and greg are finally tying the knot! I’m so happy for them. My tummy was doing tummy flips and there was this sudden lovey fluffy feeling that made me went woozie.
Besides that desperat housewife was showing yet another marriage. And I saw the bride in white off shoulders top holding a bouquet of light pink with white and light yellow Gerberas!
Well not everyone who uses Gerberas are like bouncy cheerful n loud.. it can be classy
Classy!
*Well unlike some housefly, Tak Atas!*
This gave me an idea of a perfectly nice day dress to wear on that eventful day- 3rd jan 2010.
I’m gonna be in a light lavendar off shoulder dress to match with the bride’s colour.
This kept me thinking of how mine will be, for my ROM.
I want light pink and possible white gerberas and dandelions with lavendar baby breath!!!!
My dress? It’s gonna be a white off shoulder cotton dress. With a veil like cap you see in the 50′s/ 60′s.
It’s gonna be a garden affair!!! I’ve already the place for such asetting. Beaufort Singapore! hahaha
Hm can my wedding photos setting have a F1 formula race car??? I think that’ll be so cool with vintage dresses!!!
And instead of the traditional wedding cake and champagne… I want white icing cupcakes and ice wine!!!
Hm I am so so so so excited, four wedding bells soon… damn when will mine be then?
I wanna go through the process but then again marriage is a commitment that scares me quite badly especially after 2 bad heartbreaks.
On a happier and lighter note, did anyone notice the Cadbury eyebrow advertisemen- where 2 kids were featured, with the girl squeezing air out of the balloon??? Got me laughing and smiling. *a sudden crave for that sweet chocolate melting in your mouth, having your favourite tunes playing over the speakers with my precious pooch lazying in bed, while I frantically churn out my reports* Anyhoos, this cadbury advertisement has got to be my favourite pick for this year!
okie I am tired again and there’s nothing else to blog besides that I’ve gotten myself a new pair of shorts!!! hahaha
Jess called me at 2plus, seems like I’m helping her with her survey at SIM HQ this evening, I gotta head back to school so much earlier. Had plans to do my revision at home and head down to school prolly ard 9 to wait for my Mr Tay to end his lesson.
oh… guess no runs no swims, it’s coming to 5pm and I’m not even a quarter through my micro report.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDEN DIDI!!!!
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